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Saturday, May 15, 2004

Another Saturday night, and i aint got nobody

Well then....

its been a rough and rumble weekend so far. Friday...well, friday was good in a way. I realized that i picked a pretty bad day to stay home because we learned this whole big concept in chem that we're gonna have a quiz on this monda and i have the tiniest clue as to what im doing. Im gonna have to stay after school one of these days for espanol to catch another episode of la catrina so i dont get lost. I missed the one day we get to see my councelor to see what all this college hoop-la is about. But you know what? It's all ok. im ROLLIN' with the punches. I just have a shitload of studyin and homework to do tomorrow, cuz i sure as hell aint doin it today.

Ok ok! funny story!!! so! im leavin chem with amanda and i turn the corner and who should I spy but the guy i like! He sees me and we kinda look at each other and start to ^smile at each other. Well im walkin and i lost amanda ahead of me, and im not lookin where im goin, and i run into someone next to me. But wait, theres more. The guy i bump into turns out to be this creepy freshman guy who lives around me. He looks at me, laughs, and like zooms away. and i run up to amanda, my cheeks turning a beautiful shade of red. I dont know if he saw me, and if he did, o well. Because I saw him later that day, he didnt say anything about it, and was bein his normal flirty self. *giggles* I really need to stop liking him.

eh ok, so me and jessjess split rides to the ice show. It was alot of fun, there were so many people! no shit! me, Jess, Emily, Sam, ALlison, Ana, Eunice, Jamie, Olicia, Lauren Berger, Kristyn H., Nate, Lauren Embs, Jorie, Mel S., Aj, Brian, Erik, Uma, Pete, Tim, Ally Kaizen, her friend Sara,Cait Collins, JD, o there was more im sure. Just tons of people!! Everyone was singin along to the songs, and i think most people were payin more attention to singing then the skating. Not to say we didnt pay attention at all. We all screamed like hell whenever Mel, Kel, Nancy, or Alicia came on. Come to think of it, my throat is still in much pain. lol At intermission alot of people left, and me and uma danced chacha as promised. hehe hes too cute.

But whats a weekend with out some lovely drama? Maybe i shouldnt get into it way too much, but erik got mad at me. But he wasnt really mad at me. But i still made him mad. And i ended up crying, cuz i just dont know what to do anymore. I felt like a shitty person. I just didnt know what to say to him. I dont even know if im to blame, but i just felt goddawful. I sure hope he doesnt read this because hed get more upset if he knew that he made me cry. So i went to bed late, cuz i was absolutely just...numb...

The next morning I wake up kinda early, 9-ish. I wanted to go workout this morning, but i forgot to tell my mom. I need to go workout. Its not just something i do, its a necessity now. I went shopping today and i had such a hard time finding some good stuff b/c my stomach was poofing through all the shirts. I dont know how, but i look and feel like i gained weight, but infact, I lost about 3 lbs. I dont get it. So tomorrow marks me return to Womens Workout World. I'll be goin every monday, wednesday, and Sunday. And occasionally on saturday, depending on if i wanna get up early enough. I gave up junkfood and pop, (altho i broke today :-[ thats ok, cuz im really good about it durning the week) I talked con mi madre alot more than i have in like the past 2 weeks combined today. she took me shoppin and i got 2 jeans, a skirt, 3 camis, 2 tank tops, 2 haltery things, and one shirt. We also talked about wat im gonna do for a livin. Im fairly sure what is goin on for the rest of HF career...and im thinkin of bein an occupational therapist. its like a physical therapist, only less intense. It'll be cool. if i do it. i dunno

well i watched boondock saints again. and now im talkin to jessjess and erik. im gettin kinda sleepy tho. ho humm..
much luv
<3 kara

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Thursday, May 13, 2004

Home

Am I wierd for wanting to go to school?

I mean all my friends are at school.
The guy i like is at school.
Im gonna have a shit load of homework to makeup i bet.
Im gonna be lost in math and chem and spanish.

Shennanigans. But, on the other hand, i dont want to go to school lookin the way i do, and have to see all those lovely people there.

anyways, I spose i had pink eye again...it was nasty, and my parents both agreed i couldnt go to school. Lucky me for wakin up 15 minutes earlier. I dont know what i would have done had my parents been gone. gone to school i guess? lol

so i go back to sleep after they leave. Wake up at 10 to my brobro. I watch super troopers while he goes to work for an hour and ahalf. Take a bath...then brobro comes home and we finish watching the labrynth. Let me tell you, if you havnt seen david bowie in tights...YOU SHOULD! lol

so next, i figure i should get doin my homework, but i hate homework,chem labs especially. So i intend on gettin to it, but i dont, cuz i clean up my room and wash dishes, and read old journal entrys, stupid labs! well, all that aside, i finally get my ass on that fuckin lab, and lab it up. ((wnted to see how many times i could say lab in a paragraph)) I finish the LAB and then madre comes and is rushin me out the door to go to this dr.s appt. but by that time my eyes had cleared up mostly due to this old medicine we had. And so I getin the car and she zooms down the street and shes yellin at me
"Hurry up!"
"but--"
"hurry up!"
"But i--"
" I know its out of character for you but you need to HURRY UP!"
"But i thought id tell you my eyes are clear"
"*silence and stopping the car and lookin at my eyes* oh. then do you still need to go to the dr.s?"
"I dunno thats why i thought id ask you"

Crazy madres. so i chill out a lil at home, waiting for ppl to come online when madre goes "lets go to the bank! wanna drive kara?!" and so i say YES! I back out of our long drive like perfectly and our bank is in park forest. So i hadda go on western, and i was in wrong lanes and i had to change lanes 2 times and its scary and i missed my turn! oh me oh my. I also went through a yellow light...that changed red right in the middle of the intersection. I was bad! but the drive home was good. For my first time in that side of western and all, i did pretty good. *phew* how u drive so well sam, ill never know. It prolly had soemthin to do with park forest, my scaredness.

well school tomorrow maybe? missed chu guys!
<3 kara

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Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Whore or not the whore? that is the question

I SWARE! i must be the after school whore(woowoo redlight distric). Can't say i ^enjoy it, can't say i _hate it. Charlie, Erik, AJ, Brett.....if david was there itd be him too. I made the mistake of saying "dont poke, caress" now its nothing but me squealing and a massive case of t-h-o...and not due to coldness either...

altho Math clase will take care of that and its REFREAKINDICULOUS air conditioning temp.

anyhooters, i gotta say, this year is finishing up quite nicely. im at 5/5 for good days. although, while over all quite pleasent, they days are speckled with bad parts. But mostly tony the tiger worthy!

Gotta say im lovin spanish, cuz im finally getting it, i can finally speak it! Lovin math cuz i have fun wit jessjess, lee, ross, and samalooalus. definately gonna miss that class. Lovin D/E cuz *someones* been touchin me in a affectionate way. *drools a little* Lovin english cuz me n jess do nothin but crack up. da-da da da da IM LOVIN IT

abrazos y besos

<3 kara

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Sunday, May 09, 2004

Just another weekend...or is it?

Well then buddies, this weekend has been pretty damn busy. Friday I was alllll set to go to JessJess's for a fun filled night of shoppin and non-sleeping. hehe. Only i got shaken up because my mom comes home like 2 hours b4 i was supposed to leave and goes "hurry up, we're goin grocery shoppin now" So i got a little freaked out, and i was constantly yellin at her to make her go faster. O well, it turned out OK. we got home with like 30 minutes to spare. I packed n then daddy let me drive to jess's house. You know how jess's house is on a CURVE ? Well, i was turnin on that curve and I knew there was a car behind me, but i thought it had gone away. And so i was goin really slow cuz em had parked in the middle of the drive and i couldnt pull in, so i was like goin 5mph wonderin what to do, and i look and im like oops...car behind me. Anyways, i like driving. Once at jessjess's i put my stuff down and then we left to go shoppin at Lincoln Mall _{dun dun dun} Jess went shoppin for her madre, and Em was helpin her, and i felt like a giant ass because I was hyper on a friday night and they were in this Hallmark store and I was goin CrAzY! Apparently, Im no good at picking out mothers day things. So they were prolly really annoyed with me. I think i got some little kid to say ^{"What the hell!?"} accidentally. Oops. We went underware shopping, only not really. Turns out, Emily doesnt want a thong because shes embarrassed to buy underware. Thats ok, i used too be when i was younger. Nobody bought any underware, and it was all for the best cuz I used my dinero later. Anyways, after shoppin, we get in the car after bein harrassed by some crazy folks from the area. Eep! So we get in the car and try to figure out where to go for dindin. Finally we decide on fazoli's. Guess who we see there!? Brians Head! lol Emily saw brian's head from the parking lot, and with brian's head was Alicia's head, Sam's Head, Gail's head, and Joe's head. and their bodys too. wow! so we are crackin up mad style in the resturaunt over stupid things...like how emily and erik laugh. and we were all like crying at the table...and we get into the car to go to walgreens and we're like rollin in the car cuz we just couldnt stop laughin. Jess snorted in walgreens. *snort snort* anyways, back at jessjess's casa, we play with gimmo and talk. we were meanin to watch a movie, but nobody could decide wat to watch, so we left cosby show on. o well. When gimmo is finally put away, we turn out all the lights, and talk until like 130. ((em hadda get up early the next mornin and jess was tired)) But we talked about all kindsa things, like scary people, and driving, and death, and then to guys and fucking and gossip. I didnt talk much. I kinda felt backseated. But it was all for the best. When they started talkin about death, i thought about my grandma, and i was crying. Thank god the lights were off and they werent talkin to me. they would have noticed me crying, and i didnt want to ruin any night with depressing talks. i got over it, and the convo changed thankfully. and we finally rolled over to go to beddddddd. The next morning at like 645, Jessjess's momma wakes us up to tell emily she has to get ready. And then she lets out gimmo who procedes to jump all over me and walk all over me, thinkin that i was jess. ^Nope! hehe we tried to go back to sleep, and we did, but jessjess's momma comes down at like quarter to 9 and reads the paper. So i kinda drift in and out, i dont want my daddy to be waitin for me when he picks me up. I get ready, and play wit gimmo and talk to jess while waitin for daddy. 930 comes, and i go wit daddy. Then i take a shower at home and get ready to go on a 2 hour drive to ISU to pick up brobro. I hadda ride with mama, and shes a HORRIBLE driver.but i drifted in and out of sleep. We got there finally, and went up to brobro. I sat around and watched over stuff, his stupid roomate came in said nothin and left. but there were soooo manny HOTTIES there, it was so delish. we packed up his stuff, went away, ate at bennigans, and then brobro and I drove home together. we talked about everything from driving,to the summer, to drinking and drugs, to the neighborhood kids, to the role of other kids in our lives, to our cousins and our parents. It was wierd at the beginning cuz we like never talked, so it was awkward, but we got over it. Once home, we picked up gramma, and had pasghetti, and then by 1045 i was gone because id had like no sleep the night b4. I slept straight ^{till 10 the next morning.} it was good. Then i waited for mama to come home, gave her a dvd, and then she and daddy left at about 12 for the zoo. me and brobro left to go shoppin at about 1230. we got daddy a shelf to hang up his collection of mugs, and i got 2 cds ((jason mraz and joss stone)) brobro got supertroopers and labrynth and a double drive cd. I also got makeup and brobro got some video games at gamestop. ((here was a hottie behind the desk there. too bad there were other girls in the store *pout*)) So i get back, mow the lawn and sweat my brains out, get 20 bucks, and take a 2nd shower. Dinner was disasterous due to the usual strains between my madre and padre. welcome home to us. Then i had a rootbeer float and watched big fish wit madre and brobro. The end of my crazy fuckin weekend. back to school. great. *rolls eyes*

<3 kara

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Thursday, May 06, 2004

Wednesday, Thursday, happy days!

Today was fan-freaking-tastic

Spring fever has taken a hold of me. im DYING. Yesterday I couldnt even finish my math homework. I had one problem left. and i stared at it...and stared some more. and said fuck it. it took me almost an hour to do oh say 15 problems, and they werent hard either.

anyways, let me take you through today. My great day started out with a cup of coffee. Yesterday I didnt have_any and today it effected me extra. I get to the bus stop, and immediately these 2 kids Brendan and Matt (i think?) throw down their bookbags and I hear one of them go ^{"Lets GO"} At first, i thought they were gonna fight, but then they pull out a hackey sack and start playin with Jake DeGroot. I love watchin that shit. And BOY am i glad i didnt bring my cd player today.

How many of you have heard your bus driver talk about getting high?

I have!! and let me tell you, it was hi-larious. I was r o l l i n and smilin like a motha fucka when i got off the bus. I wanted to tell Sam and Caitlin, but they werent there at first _poo.But luckily, Sammy came about a minute later and I related the tale in all its hilarity to her. Caitlin came shortly after that and i was laughin so hard over it, which was makin them laugh too If i remember correctly. And then my laughing reminded me of Drivers ED yesterday when we were talkin about THE EFFECTS OF ALCOHOL ON SOMEONE and how when i went to visit my brobro at college last fall, i got shitfaced, and became a really happy drunk. And then I accidentally knocked over someones beer, and they became a very angry drunk. So I was rollin for that with sammy. I tried tellin SarSar both those stories on the way to spanish _{But She Just Didn't Get It}

So, In spanish, we didnt learn. HELL YES!Instead we did some salsa and merengue dancing. I want to watch dirty dancing alot now. OK...Ok...I'm not the greatest dancer ever. But I didnt step on anyones foot, I kept in time to the music, I helped out some poor males who had no idea what they were doing, and I HAD FUN! I dont know many of the guys in my ^{espa�ol clase}, so i was a little uncomfortable with them. But at the end i did dance with UMA and PHIL! phil is a cutie, no wonder certain girls Swoon for him. *wink wink*

In math, we did a group challenge. Me, Ross, Lee, and Jess have some fun times in that class. Lee wrote on my paper "Kara Carr is a Lame and loves Ross P." I drew a heart around Ross's name, and Ross says "What can i say? I just have that effect on the ladiez" Also, Ross took my pencil and calculator and book, and hit me a few times, and i went over to him, hit him back, and tackled him for my stuff back. Jess looked at us and said to me Spring Fever? Bell rang, I didnt need to go to my locker, so I walked to JessJess's locker wit her as we called each other frowzy scuttlebutt and Scuttlebutt-head. Ive decided that scuttlebutt sounds like the name for a cheesey plastic CRAB! Gotta love Jess!

In Chem, we watched our chemistry move ^{*duhhh dun dun da dun da dundunnnnn*} with our friends Roald H. and Don Schulwalter. then we took notes and made test corrections. Remember that test i thought I did pretty good on? I got a 40/50. Just barely a 80% Fuckin lot of good studying did me.

Lunch was fun, Me, emily, jess, abby rios (?), amanda, and carm ate outside, talkin and baking. Yum. I love eating outside, its a refresher fo sho!

and before history, I ran into Olivia who told me that some kid in her history class peer edited my term paper and said it was AWESOME! and that made me happy. But then I ran into kiera, and we were talking for a few seconds before none other than Paul Ogren ran into us. He dissed us about badminton, and we dissed him about football and track. I almost forgot why I liked Paul. Hes too sweet and funny. I miss talkin to him. So while me kiera and paul are talking, Randalcomes up behind me and ^{picks me up} off the ground, _{puts me down}, and walks away. Gotta love Randal. And, as wierd as it sounds, i love getting picked up. Makes me feel...girly :)

I was l a t e to history because the music wasnt playing. But thats ok. ive never been late to history before. History was dulllllllllllllllll. But! Alex meister and Lindsay niego were talkin to me alot, talkin about parties, and callin me a pothead. (lindsay saw me at a party in the fall, and holds me to it) Alex and Brian were suprised to find out that I smoked. Alex drew a portrait of me where i look like a baby smokin a joint, and i have a pot on my head, because im a Pot...head...hahaha. not. lol I plan on hanging it up in my locker.

After school outside, I ran into Aj, and he tried to choke me. What o what does that mean? Me and em were talkin about, I foget what, but then erik attacked. he had been trying to get my attention by ^{Flipping the bird} at me, but then he wouldnt let me pass before getting his customary "handful" which i didnt want to do that day. So he almost forced me into a corner. and wouldnt let me go to my bus. I was screaming "STOP" and "Leave me alone" but he wasnt listening. I somehow got away tho, by calling to Emily to control her brother. the bus ride was boring and sucky and hot and crowed. But I got home and read my 2 pieces of mail (which i never get) and now im planning on working out.

Ta darlings. This weekend will rock harder than any other if everything goes according to plan. Tomorrows friday. 20 days left of school. If it rains tonight, Im playin in the rain. no homework.

HAVE A GRRRRRRRRREAT DAY!

love ya lots :-*
<3 kara

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